Track Listing & Lyrics
by John Wesley
Last year, is a terrible place to live
Before that, is someplace ya go when you cannot forgive
Your own misguided attempt, at changing the world
Wake up in the dark you're all covered in sweat
I ain't much of a gambler but I'd be willing to bet
You've been chasing monsters
Looks like you've already been found...
You wear addiction like a second skin
Well this is one fight you never fought to win
Try as you might
You're the only fool that still believes
Well I'm here with you
Chasing monsters with you
I still believe, so tell me
Where do they come from?
Where do they come from?
Well I'm here with you
Hunting monsters with you
I've got the big guns so tell me
Where do they come from?
Where do they come from?
The chime of a full glass, taste of the first pass,
aroma of butane laid out before you
Slit of a short skirt, a blade on a glass tray
Bliss of a raised vein, chained to the spoon again
The life of the party, centre of gravity
A shroud of mystery surrounds you
The smack of a freight train. Crippling ghost pains
Cower and hide, monsters have found you again
Well I'm here with you
Chasing monsters with you
I still believe, so tell me
Where do they come from?
Where do they come from?
Well I'm here with you
Hunting monsters with you
I've got the big guns so tell me
Where do they come from?
Where do they come from?
by John Wesley
Mama their eyes burn
Holes right through me when I walk by them
How do I offend?
They make me wanna hide
Sometimes I turn my head away and try
Yet I cannot disappear
She said they don't know you
They don't shine the way that you do
This world ain't good enough for the likes of you
You got to get away
You got to fly boy, find your powers and a cape
You got to make your escape, and get away
These years have not been kind
Each new day brings a struggle of a different kind
But hell I don't mind
A busy man looks through me
His money'd eyes blind to what he will not see
He don't know the secrets I keep
Well I am happier than he,
'Cause I'm gonna fly boy, gonna find powers and a cape
I'm gonna make my escape, gonna get outta here
I know about it, I know about it. The world has lost all its dreams
I know about it. The world won't let us breathe. Won't set us free
Each day we run this race
Consumed by self we miss the brave face
Or we look away
But not me. I'm gonna rise above this caste you made for me
Gonna be everything you dream but will never be. I'm gonna fly...
'Cause I am Flyboy, got my powers and a cape
Gonna make my escape, gonna get outta here
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by John Wesley
I must guard this precious heart
I must close these jaded eyes
My small world has come apart
Under the weight of our demise
The words you say, the way you move
The lies you tell, the bones you bruise
Cannot be mended, cannot be healed
I am the soul that no longer feels
You must leave, you must go
I am better here alone
I have nothing left to steal
I am the soul that no longer feels
You must leave, you must go
I am better here alone
I am better here
A velvet veil covered your head
White like the satin on our bed
These vows were never meant to be so mean
This is not my velvet dream
You must leave, you must go
I am better here alone
I have nothing left to steal
I am the should that no longer heals
You must leave, you must go
I am better here alone
Be this hell or in between
These are not my velvet dreams
These are not my dreams
by John Wesley
I got something to say
I've been looking your way
I get the feeling I could use anything, lose everything
Just to make you stay
Never knowin' I could feel
You come and break my seal
Don't ya know that I could lose everything, use anything
Just to make you real
Got you all in my mind
Got you under my skin
Don't ya know that I would use everything, prove anything
Just to let you in
Now I'm startin' to sweat
I'm shakin' inside
I'm willing to break anything, take anything
Just to watch you ride
You are my wrench
You've got my pride
You got all the tools to break me loose inside
You are my wrench
You got my soul
You got all the tools to make me lose control
Wrench...
I've never fallen so hard
I've never sunk so low
Never knew this could break a part of me, be the start of me
Come and make it so
We got nothing to lose
I got nothing to hide
Got a feelin' you're just the woman to dig a tunnel through
Open me inside
by John Wesley
Through this haze
Glimmers little shards
Of what was once to be
The air in here simmers
With the fallout
And the dissipating heat
Here we live in sight of the rainbow
Here we live in sight...
You give it all away
You turn it all to waste
This alleged good life
Seems to vanish
Just as one of us does reach
A bullet
The only honesty
The only entity that will not deceive
Here we live in sight of the rainbow
Here we live in sight...
Here we live in sight of the rainbow
Here we live in sight...
You give it all away
Then turn it to waste...
by John Wesley
Come on down pour yourself another pint of courage
While I sit around and wait for you to find your claws
I would never be the one to have discouraged
Such a fine attempt at the art of climbing walls
Who would ever thought I'd be the one to finally lose you
I never made you out to be an easy mark
A simple re-defining of the meaning of lucid
A simple matter of the slow extinction of my spark
One look, one blow
One heart, run low
one more...well placed hole...
You're a woman of the kind likes to cut men slowly
So I never really felt it till you cut my soul
Now I'm like a gun that's been cocked and loaded
Contemplating the logistics of a well placed hole
One look, one blow
One heart, run low
one more...well placed hole...
Did you really ever thing that I would finally do it
Did you really think you meant so much
I'd lose control
I've got a little hint for you my star-crossed lover
Come back around here if you're looking for a well placed hole...
by John Wesley
Don't know much about Hollywood but I recognize the game
Watch you rack 'em up with the best of them
Don't relate to this condition of fame
I know all the wanna bes and could've beens
Seen you bullshit the gonna bes and should've beens
Now you live our world like a movie scene
and open our souls like a vein
Now it's all or nothing
We live or we die by our promises
We live and we breathe each other
We hold to the love that bonded us
I'll be there when you've tripped and fallen down
I'll be there when it's too dark to see
You say that it's all or nothing
You say that it's all or nothing
Now it's all or nothing
Followed you here on the tail of your latest whim
Followed you like a kite in the rain
Watch the wheels make you promises and pretend
Watch you strip for a break that never came
This place chokes the life out of you and it
Sucks us in, smothers us in sin
Now you live our world like a movie scene
slowly we fade...from the screen
Would you be a queen
Humbled to your knees by some
B movie celluloid king
You were always so beautiful to me
Now it's all or nothing
by John Wesley
Sometimes we run we trip and fall
Sometimes we look we don't see at all
Sometimes we heal, it leaves a scar
Sometimes we run we go too far
And then we slide...
You and me we been through this before
Seems the bruises that won't heal got bruised some more
Through these towering waves of malice we rise
The only way we lived was side by side
But then we slide...
You know I've got no shame for what we are
It's a miracle we ever come this far
And the only way we ever did survive
Was side by side
Some days I was your only friend
Some days I thought we would be again
Some nights it was you kept me alive
I can't face this world without you by my side
But then we slide...
by John Wesley
There was a time
That you were so bright, and so strong
There was nothing that you feared
Nothing you could do wrong
Dreams glowed in the sun
Your world was alive
So full of life, hard and wild
You were the golden child
Head-long into the withering fire
Of a life in a dark space
Your conscience, became misplaced
Smoke that would not clear
No kind words offered to your ears
Shot down in a steep climb
You disappear in a haze of smoke and wine
Well I'm waiting and I wonder
Where've you gone why are you not here
We're waiting and we wonder
Where someone goes when they've been disappeared
Separation of your thoughts
Words that no longer rhyme
Days spent in your room
Spinning webs with the threads left of your mind
Dreams you no longer face
Hidden away in some far place
A shame of a kind that does not erase
Hold onto your pillow and drop out of the race
Head-long into the withering fire
Blindfolded, stumbling across a tightwire
Shot down in a steep climb
You disappeared in a haze of smoke and wine
Well I'm waiting and I wonder
Where've you gone, and why are you not here
We're waiting and we wonder
Where a soul goes when it's been disappeared
I see you and I speak to you
There ain't nothing in your eyes but the glow of fear
I beg you to tell me
Why have you been disappeared
The struggle of these last years
Brought me to this place
Where I hold my beautiful wife
My beautiful child
I reach and touch her face
All the hurt of my lost years
The uncertainty, all the fears
The losses, regrets and the tears
Have in time been disappeared
Have with time been disappeared
They will with time
by John Wesley
Look into the sky, you can't erase what's in your eyes
Look into the sun, you cannot face what you've become
Through the shopping malls, you blend into the human walls
Your eyes search the faces, as you move within the places
That you once moved with her, that you once knew with her
When you were arm in arm showing happy to the world
You were arm in arm showing happy to the world
arm in arm showing happy to the world
is no one happy in this world
Grateful for breath, more than once you've cheated death
Crushed till you scream, you can't awaken from this dream
This I will pray for you, this I will promise you
For every lover that's gone, another comes along
And you will move in her, as if you always knew in her
You will be
Arm in arm showing happy to the world
Arm in arm showing happy to the world
Arm in arm showing happy to the world
you will be happy in this world...
Album Credits
John Wesley – Guitar, Vocals
Mark Prator – Drums and Percussion
Patrick Bettison – Bass
J. Robert – Mandolin and Violin
Tracy LaBarbera – Keys on ‘Flyboy’, backing vocals on ‘Flyboy’ and ‘Who We Love’
Eric De Wolf – Loop programming on ‘A Well Placed Hole’
Produced and Engineered by Mark Prator and John Wesley
Recorded and Mixed in the ‘Red-Room’ Tampa Florida Mastered by Mike Fuller at Fullersound Miami Florida
Artwork by Mark Wilkinson at L-Space Design
Inside sketched by Julie Wilkinson
All songs written by John Wesley