WesFest 1999
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Disc 1 - Acoustic
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by John Wesley
I was a child,
life in your arms you hold me
the fire in your eyes stopped the bleeding
the love in your heart kept me breathing
I feel I'm dying again.
I've got nothing but hatred for my lover and friend
the lion in your eyes watches me screaming
the cold in your heart keeps my blood freezing
Thirteen days, before you left me here staring
thirteen days, before you tried to stop caring
Stare into the dark
the emptiness of hell comes to enfold me
take a long look at your sweet creation
did you get a thrill to watch my heart breaking
Thirteen days, before you left me here standing alone
thirteen days, before you left me to die on a phone
I cannot pretend, can't find an end
oh, how I miss you
I was your lover and you were my friend
I pray to God I never see you again
Thirteen days, before you left me here waiting to hold you
Thirteen days, before you forgot what I told you
Thirteen days, that you gave to me only to take from me
Thirteen days, before you left me here breakingby John Wesley
Our hero lives in a box at the bottom of a Coca-Cola sign
Like some great altar to God flashing
messages all the time
Here doesn't come here to worship, no, he
comes here to live
At night he crawls through the city to
take whatever we don't give
He used to have a little baby, but a
fragile thing can soon be gone
A little cold never hurt you and me, but
her she didn't last long
Our hero stares at the stars, watches
them turn red and white
Says these are men who made this,
and this is not God's light
Hear me, Hear me I'm at the bottom of
the red and the white sign
Hear me, Hear me Cause I'm coming for you
Our hero can't read so he don't know
what that sign says
And you can be damned sure the taste
of a coke never passed his lips
He knows these are men who have
made this and their day soon must come
All the people at the bottom prayin' Lord
thy will be done
And they're shoutin'
Hear me, Hear me I'm at the bottom of
the red and the white sign
Hear me, Hear me Cause I'm coming for you
Like Don Quioxte chasing some dragon
into the night
Our hero dreams of the battle that he
topples that red knight
Topples that red light
Our hero lays in the grass dreaming of
his little sweet child
He remembers holding her hands and
touching her little sweet smile
If a man can create this neon tower into the sky
Where the hell was the God of the Coca-Cola sign
the night she died
Hear me, Hear me I'm at the bottom of
the red and the white sign
Hear me, Hear me Cause I'm coming for youby John Wesley
Silver has a gun
on the nightstand by her bed
and she wonders if the day will come
when she puts it to her head
And she is alone again
in the shadow of the morning sun
and she wonders if he really had to go
or did he just turn tail and run
He promised that he would come
but she don't wait by the phone
because they never call and they never come
and she just ends up alone
And as the end of the night comes
when that curtain starts to fall
she says you can be the one for me
when you take it take it all
Just say hiegh ho Silver
when you ride when you ride
when you take me take it all from me
just stay with me tonight
don't leave me alone tonightby John Wesley
We sit alone together
and the space begins to breathe
distance seems to come alive
why this emptiness between you and me
Where is your compassionate smile
come here take hold of me
I'll stroke your hair for a little while
just rest your eyes, it'll be all right you see
just rest your eyes, it'll be all right you see
We sit alone, together
your Crystal Blues have turned to ice
your heart is colder then November
what is it that I've failed to recognize
I could make all of this better
just don't close your eyes
I could make all of this better
just don't close your eyes
I could make all of this better
please don't close your eyesby John Wesley
Say goodbye to the girl with the pale blue eyes
is she too tired to see
oh no, she's just tired of me
I am in love with the girl of the pale blue eyes
is she too blind to see
what all this is doing to me
She looks away when she sees me comin'
I lose my words when I try to speak
she won't defend her reasons for runnin'
she's just tired of being part of this losin' streak
Says she's got herself a good new man
say's this time she won't tell no lies
I can't help but to want to tell him
don't believe what it is you see in those eyes
And should those blue eyes see another
and should your lips feel his kiss
then God just let me shut my eyes to you
and help me find a way to get out of this
keep me sane while I'm getting out of this
then say goodbye to the girl with the pale blue eyesby John Wesley
The fog sets in and covers the sky
the brightness of the stars will disappear
with no means to reason why
I felt your presence as if you were here
I cover you with all that I am
I still can't see the sky
I still can't see the sky
Watch you fly away Little Blue Angel
watch you race in the wind
why do you fly from me Little Blue Angel
this is not a dream, this is...
The death of a friend
this is the death of a friend
yes you were my friend
I will miss you my friendby John Wesley
Look into the sky, you can't erase what's in your eyes
Look into the sun, you cannot face what you've become
Through the shopping malls, you blend into the human walls
Your eyes search the faces, as you move within the places
That you once moved with her, that you once knew with her
When you were arm in arm showing happy to the world
You were arm in arm showing happy to the world
arm in arm showing happy to the world
is no one happy in this world
Grateful for breath, more than once you've cheated death
Crushed till you scream, you can't awaken from this dream
This I will pray for you, this I will promise you
For every lover that's gone, another comes along
And you will move in her, as if you always knew in her
You will be
Arm in arm showing happy to the world
Arm in arm showing happy to the world
Arm in arm showing happy to the world
you will be happy in this world...by John Wesley
I must guard this precious heart
I must close these jaded eyes
My small world has come apart
Under the weight of our demise
The words you say, the way you move
The lies you tell, the bones you bruise
Cannot be mended, cannot be healed
I am the soul that no longer feels
You must leave, you must go
I am better here alone
I have nothing left to steal
I am the soul that no longer feels
You must leave, you must go
I am better here alone
I am better here
A velvet veil covered your head
White like the satin on our bed
These vows were never meant to be so mean
This is not my velvet dream
You must leave, you must go
I am better here alone
I have nothing left to steal
I am the soul that no longer heals
You must leave, you must go
I am better here alone
Be this hell or in between
These are not my velvet dreams
These are not my dreamsby John Wesley
High upon a hill
Looking over the ruins burning still
Where was I for all of this.
Where was I for all of this.
You never looked so bad she said
I didn't know I could do all this she said
I didn't know all this could burn with just a kiss
Burn with just a kiss
I didn't know
You didn't notice Rome was burning
You didn't notice you had the flame still in your hands
Why didn't you notice Rome was burning
As the passion filled your eyes
You couldn't see to find the home you'd left behind
Like all the lovers that live blind
Lovers that live blind
No you couldn't see
You didn't notice Rome was burning
You didn't notice you had the flame still in your hands
Why didn't you notice Rome was burningby John Wesley
We don't look at things the same way
some days you don't look at me at all
think we could weather this storm
together won't be so hard if we fall
So come to me with your hands open
trust in me I will be your chance
there's always time enough for bleeding
there never seems to be time enough to dance
no time to dance would you give me,
my love a time to dance
This old world is weighin' down on you
your eyes barely leave the floor
rest your head upon my shoulder
there's a meanness going on out there
and you don't need anymoreby John Wesley
I've grown tired
I've grown cold
nothing causes any harm to me
hated things I hold
I can't feel what you give to me
see the skin's burned from my hands
I remember what you promised me
like some desperation Angel
I come running back to you...
My eye have numbed
my words have died
can't witness what I've become
God could burn my eyes
I can't bear you to look at me
is there nowhere I can hide
I hold on to what you promised me
Like some desperation Angel
I come running
back to you
and in desperation Angel
I've come running home to you
trust in me my angel
you'll never know what I've been through
never know what I've been through
no no, never know what I've been through
I'm your desperation Angel
I've come running home to you
and in desperation Angel
I've come running back to you
running back to you
running back to you
running back to you
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Disc 2 - Electric
Lyrics are not available
by John Wesley
Well here we are boy
and I'm through dreaming
all these colors I've been flying
have lost the will to keep me high
and I'm not amused...
So I said hey you're no a star
so are you through screaming
cause all this paranoia's got you
hiding in the dark
and I can't see you...
Well shine the light
and you can come on in
can't you see I'm on a mission
you can stay if you are wishin'
but I'm waiting...
see my daddy hit the doorway
when I was just a kid
said he'd gone to find the sunshine
and bring it back for me
and I'm waiting
waiting for the sun to shine
Do you see my scars
it's dark and they're glowing
all these tiny little punctures
are a doorway to the sun
a doorway to the sun
think I'll have another one
I know he's in here
I can feel him lookin' for me
I hear him laughin' like he did
like he did when I was young
daddy's bringin' me the sun
and I'm waiting
waiting for the sun to shineby John Wesley
Nothing changes with the moon
only the shades of emptiness within the room
and dark to light,
morning never comes too soon
I see the sunlight in your hair
I see you smile as you move without a care
and the morning,
becomes much brighter with you there
But the cold wind comes
and a cold wind blows
you feel so scared because you're so alone
and like a frightened child
you call my name, you call my name
But you only had to reach out
to reach out and I'll be here
reach out, reach out and take my hand.
The past it haunts you like a ghost
comes rushing back at you like waves
upon the coast
threatens what you are
and who you love the most
And when the cold wind comes
and a true wind blows
and you feel so scared because you're all alone
like a frightened child, you call my name
you call my name, you call my name
And you only had to reach outby John Wesley
I don't mind if you pry, it's just me
It's the one thing I protect so well
this is my story
I don't care where you go or who you tell
cause it's my life and my lines
and have no fear we're not forgotten here
One step to the light to see
one foot on the edge that's me
one long trail into the night
all over this battle field
Sometimes you crawl
sometimes you kneel
one long trail into the night
one long trail into the night
What you sell
is not who you are
it's what you do
Who I am
I protect so well
keep away from you
I don't care where you go
or who you tell
because into the night we go on and on
this is my story
oh this is my story
One step to the light to see
one foot on the edge, that's me
one long trail into the nightby John Wesley
We hide...we run
we dodge, we deny
we turn from the gun and try
To live...to learn
yet we injure the loves
that we don't recognize
I look...to my home
see a comb or a brush
and remember the touch
Of you...who I loved
who I wronged
who have come and gone
you have come and gone
though these dreams
do fail
to yield us the promise made
Yield us the promise gave
We reel...in the wake
in the shock of the madness
the all consuming sadness
You bring...to me
the body we created
cut by words that were
bladed
we bleed... and move on
with scars too slow to heal
a memory too numb to
feel
you have come and gone
Though we run from the
coming of the light
and we hide in the shadows of our own lives
always searching for those
who have gone
those who have come and gone
We feel safe in the
cover of the night
we bury the hope
that's in our own lives
living crushed by lovers
who've gone
you have come and gone
you fade...from my sight
from my heart you will bleed away
then I will turn away
of you...who I've loved
who I've wronged
who have come and goneby John Wesley
Wish I could blame this on your youth
but that would only make
a martyr of the truth
I chose to see only the
beauty in your eyes
never the shame
never the lives
Wish i could blame this on the sun
I never seem to be the chosen one
just a glimpse and you were gone
this place without you seems all wrong
Wish I could call you on the phone
wish you happiness
wherever you call home
wish this night wasn't so dark and mean
I wish you'd see me
when you dream
These are the days
that won't let go
this is the shame
we're not allowed to show
this is the anger from inside
these are the days that will not die
I wish these thoughts of you would end
I wish that someday you could learn to be my friend
I wish I'd never kissed your face
I wish these thoughts to be erased
I wish that someday you might find
a little love
a little peace of mind
I wish that I don't fall apart
I wish that you'd still hold me
in your heartby John Wesley
How easily forgotten
how easily replaced
your loved ones become...
We are the wreckage strewn behind you
love's own casualties
from the battle that you won
You could not wait
to fly your flag
you could not wait
to raise you man in victory
I know you hate
to be mistaken
for the woman
of just an ordinary man...
To be the lover
of an ordinary man
I'm down on my knees
I'm crawling across the floor to you
I'm holding out my hand
God I do not understand
why I'm down on my knees
Now I'm troubled by your silence
I'm troubled that you no longer dare
to lay with me under the night stars
or walk unhindered on your own two legs
you could not wait
to lose your new freedom
you could not wait
to carry your new chains
I know you hate
to keep him waiting
so you'd better
drag yourself back to him again
I wanna feel alive
I wanna feel awake
to make these night stars go away
I wanna feel alive
I wanna feel awake
I wanna feel anything and
everything
this world will let me taste
I wanna see you cry
I wanna see you break
I wanna see you crash into the walls
of your own infamyby John Wesley
Brick by brick
stone by stone
dismantle the will of a man
strip his flesh and bone
Reach out your hand
the moment comes
blade catches the light of your eyes
the man slowly comes undone
Nobody noticed
no one saw a thing
all turned a blind eye to the fallen
and the bad luck he brings
You wake in the morning after
the sky's a color that you can't see
friends have fallen by the wayside
why isn't anyone talking to me
get those funny looks in the market
people you loved just stare
wander on with your hands in your pockets
even your girlfriend don't care
They've all come to watch the emperor
They've all come to watch the emperor
They've all come to watch the emperor
To watch the emperor fall
One part truth
three parts deceit
two parts shit that you made up
add passion for heat
Did ya hear he said this
can you believe he done that
can you believe the nerve of the man
let me at him tell me where he's at
wake to your fave in the mirror
see someone you don't recognize
stare at the changes in the reflection
you've become someone that you despiseby John Wesley
Silver linings are for someone else's cloud
yours have lately been all gray
I know your dreams and they've seen their better days
some of us who live have higher tolls to pay
Why have you brought me this angel here
Are you alive, ah come on look at me
I know you're in there, just open your eyes
I know you're alive
oh but you just might not want to be
I can hear you breathe just open your eyes
hope is a stain on someone else's soul
despair sustains your soul
you waste your days, let them slip away
hard to hold on when there's nothing left to hold
Are you alive ah come on look at me
I know you're in there
just open your eyes
I know you're alive
oh ya just might not wanna be
I can hear you breathe
just open your eyes
I want you to know I've never been far away
there's nothing to be said can't be undone
you're all I have so please don't go away
there's nothing that you've said that can't be undone
Are you alive
ah come one look at me
I know you're in there
just open your eyes
I know you're alive
oh ya just might not wanna be
I can hear you breathe
just open your eyesby John Wesley
You took a turn for the worse
when I caught up to you last night
flickering it's saving light
And though improper thing we may do
not always just or always right
every once in a while
I see you smile
like everything will be alright
You always wanted to be so bad
you always wanted to be
one of the stars in the evening sky
one of the doves flying free
Winter stole upon you in your twenty second year
fragile as a wedding smile
you began to disappear
and as the worst of this
comes on you
you know I'll never leave
your sight
as the night goes out
of this room child
just pray and hold me tight
It's time to close your eyes child
it's time for you to sleep
there ain't no more pain
and no more tears
and this promise I will keep
And though improper things we may do
not always just or always right
in your heart an angel smiles
and guides you through the nightby John Wesley
What is this, you claim to profess
some kind of rare deed done on time
what mountain crossing have I missed
what sort of barb's attached to your line
Be careful of what you're promising
don't dare look at me with those eyes
Because you're way out of your league boy
you're way out of your mind
you can't be serious
yet you can't be denied
I've watched the sun rise and set
on your deepest regrets
yet you're still off chasing some star
you leave me behind with your heart in my chest
then come home bearing your latest scar
When will you find what you're looking for
don't you know it was here all the timeby John Wesley
So we stay
at morning they come
she was gone at the first sign of trouble
see how she runs
then you're paralyzed
her silhouette in light
and she's dancing on your grave
The sunrise breaks
what's done is done
the wind blows cold through your bones and you
see how they run
when you're trice denied
and you're paralyzed
I'll be the last man by your side
All of your castles may crumble
and your ministers may lie
I will still be standing
I'll be the last man by your side
