the lilypad suite

 

Track Listing & Lyrics

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an elegant mess

lyrics by John Wesley

Your eyes float left with every single word you say
And i grow deaf from all your ringing in my head
The calm that’s left makes for the door and then slips out
The prosecution rests it’s case and takes a bow

You just stare… stare…

Look at me, look at me now
Got to get back to zero somehow
Face down mining the depths
No hope but to confess
You are an elegant mess

Tremendous weight falls on the shoulders of the dead
We bury truth and live in make believe instead

Look at me, look at me now
Got to get back to zero somehow
Face down mining the depths
No hope but to confess

Look at me, look at me now
Got to get up from nothing somehow
Face down out of my head
No hope but to confess
You are an elegant mess

Look at me, look at me now
Got to get up from nothing somehow
Oh, left alone minding the dead
No hope, no hope

Look at me, look at me now
Got to get up from nothing somehow
Face down out of my head
No hope, no hope

Look at me, look at me now
Got to get back to zero somehow
Face down mining the depths
No hope left to confess

Look at me, look at me now
Got to get back to zero somehow
Face down out of my head
No hope but to confess
You are an elegant mess

free

lyrics by John Wesley

My what pretty intentions,
of flying over fences, in the breeze
Golden doors before you
A new world waits, but you can’t leave

Well you gotta be brave
You gotta be strong
If you’re gonna be free

Reasons long forgotten
All that matters is you can’t breath
Choking on apathy
Playing for sympathy, on your knees

Well you gotta be brave
You gotta be strong
If you’re gonna be free

Trapped in this small world
Drowning in dreams
Drowning in me

This can’t be wished away
There’s no magic words to say
There is no knight in shining armour
Come to rescue you from me

Well you gotta be brave
You gotta be strong
If you’re gonna be free

Trapped in this small world
Drowning in dreams
Drowning in me

Trapped in your small world
Drowning in your dreams

a.m.w.

lyrics by John Wesley

I said I’m going to California
Said I’m going to California baby
I can’t take no wife or kids

I learned it from this book I read
It said you’ve got to find your bliss
You’ve got to find your bliss

So sorry, so sorry
I said I’m going to California baby
So sorry, so sorry

walls of america

lyrics by John Wesley

Christmas came and went again
Well, no more will I hurt
Momma tries to play it off
Says maybe he had to work

You know i need next to nothing
But all you need is you
You build walls across an ocean
Walls I can’t get through

You see I’m standing here
Staring at the walls of America
Are you hiding there safe behind your walls
You know I’m stranded here
Searching all the walls of America
No more

You said, god she looks just like me
The first time that we met
You looked in me for signs of you
Now it’s me that you regret

You’ve built walls across an ocean
Safe behind you hide
An ocean I can’t swim through
For me there is no other side

Well I’m standing here
Staring at the walls of America
Are you hiding there safe behind your walls
Well I’m stranded here
Searching all the walls of America, no more

Skype dreams and birthday scenes
Is all i know of you
i dream that you come for me and carry me, carry me into the arms of america
Safe into the arms, of America
Safe in your arms, to America

a glittery nothing

lyrics by John Wesley

You’re going again so fast
What isn’t real won’t last
I never pushed you away
I never pushed you away
Pushed you away

You’ve got it worse than me
I get to where I can’t breath
Well I just push it away
I push it away
Push it away

You see, we get to choose the people we lose
You just walk away, you just walk away
Have you got so blind
Have you lost your mind
have you nothing to say
Yhere is nothing to say

I’ve got a box you made
Filled with your countless charades
A glittery nothing inside
There was nothing inside
You are nothing inside

You see, we get to choose the people we lose
You just turn away, just turn away
Later you find, alone with your kind
They’ve nothing to say

They’ve nothing to say
You see, we get to choose the people we lose
You turn them away, turn them away
Years later you find, alone with your kind
The girl is ok, she’ll be ok

I remember a dream on the pond
You showed me the geese and the swans
Showed me the lilies so strong
The lilies so strong, how’d you get it wrong
Showed me the lily so strong
How’d you get us so wrong

still waiting

lyrics by John Wesley

Send up a flare when you’re finally there
You, I can no longer defend
I stare into the west
For some sign of the quest
That bade you go into the sun

I’m waiting, waiting for your sun to shine
Yes I’m waiting, waiting for your

The river runs cold, the arcs stand bold
Awaiting your triumph to come
We stay behind
While you’re off to find
The promise of hollywood’s forgotten sons

I’m waiting, waiting for your sun to shine
Yes I’m waiting, waiting for your

lost

lyrics by John Wesley

I’ve come a long long way to find you
If I’m forgotten, I could remind you

Are you lost, I feel lost, are we lost

Promise I will not tire or bore you
It’s from a distance I adore you

Are you lost, I feel lost, are we lost
See yourself in a little girl’s dream

Weekends too much for daddy it seems
Birthdays and holidays trickle on through
Not that it matters
Cause she’ll always love you

Are you lost, are we lost, I feel lost

You’re like Santa Claus or the Easter Bunny
You fight with mom and blame the money

Are you lost, I feel lost, are we lost
Are you lost, I feel lost, you’re so lost

firelight

lyrics by John Wesley

It is the same old ruin,
It is the same old wrong
There’s no forgiveness in empathy
A wrong is still a wrong

If we were hand in hand
Would we both understand
You see I’m growing up in innocence
In apathy
You do the best you can

Would you believe, do you believe in me
Would you believe, don’t you be leaving me

The truth it came to me
We know not what we do
We were lost in the firelight
Oh this insanity
Well I was never lost to you
We were lost in firelight
Well I was never lost to you

Would you believe, do you believe in me
Would you believe, don’t you be leaving me


 

Album Credits

the lilypad suite is a collection of songs inspired by the struggle of a young girl to come to terms with the absence of her father.
The character of “lilypad” is an amalgam of several people who, through the years, have shared with me the stories of their journeys from loss into understanding.

Lyrics by John Wesley
music by John Wesley and Dean Tidey

Produced by Dean Tidey
Mixed and mastered by Steve Orchard

John Wesley: vocals, guitars
Dean Tidey: guitars
Mark Prator: drums, percussion
Travis Hearne: bass on walls of america, a glittery nothing, firelight
Andy Irvine: bass on lost, still waiting
Elliot Tidey: guest vocals

Recorded at RedRoom Recorders in Tampa, Florida
Engineered by: Mark Prator, Travis Hearne, Anna Newton

Photography by Dean Tidey
Cover art by Rebecca Dearth