Live at Katie Fitzgerald’s

 

Track Listing & Lyrics

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[accordion title=”Pretty Lives”]
by John Wesley

We are the center of a spectacle
We are the focus of our own lies
Tread the well worn path to respectable
Abusing the promise of our pretty lives

We so often thought ourselves invincible
We’d drink and laugh and challenge the very gods in the sky
Now we become invisible
Carry the ashes of our pretty lives

These are the moments that make up our pretty lives
These are desires that keep us down
Desperate and drowning in all but the candles we light
These are the wishes to never be found
These are wishes we never should have found

There was a time we were invincible
holes in the armor come from our own knives
Punch drunk, we stagger in the firelight of principle
And gather the ashes of our pretty lives
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[accordion title=”Our Hero”]
by John Wesley

Our hero lives in a box at the bottom of a Coca-Cola sign
Like some great altar to God flashing
messages all the time
Here doesn’t come here to worship, no, he
comes here to live
At night he crawls through the city to
take whatever we don’t give

He used to have a little baby, but a
fragile thing can soon be gone
A little cold never hurt you and me, but
her she didn’t last long
Our hero stares at the stars, watches
them turn red and white
Says these are men who made this,
and this is not God’s light

Hear me, Hear me I’m at the bottom of
the red and the white sign
Hear me, Hear me Cause I’m coming for you

Our hero can’t read so he don’t know
what that sign says
And you can be damned sure the taste
of a coke never passed his lips
He knows these are men who have
made this and their day soon must come
All the people at the bottom prayin’ Lord
thy will be done
And they’re shoutin’

Hear me, Hear me I’m at the bottom of
the red and the white sign
Hear me, Hear me Cause I’m coming for you

Like Don Quioxte chasing some dragon
into the night
Our hero dreams of the battle that he
topples that red knight
Topples that red light

Our hero lays in the grass dreaming of
his little sweet child
He remembers holding her hands and
touching her little sweet smile
If a man can create this neon tower into the sky
Where the hell was the God of the Coca-Cola sign
the night she died

Hear me, Hear me I’m at the bottom of
the red and the white sign
Hear me, Hear me Cause I’m coming for you
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[accordion title=”The Desperation Angel”]
by John Wesley

I’ve grown tired
I’ve grown cold
nothing causes any harm to me
hated things I hold
I can’t feel what you give to me
see the skin’s burned from my hands
I remember what you promised me

like some desperation Angel
I come running back to you…

My eye have numbed
my words have died
can’t witness what I’ve become
God could burn my eyes
I can’t bear you to look at me
is there nowhere I can hide
I hold on to what you promised me

Like some desperation Angel
I come running
back to you
and in desperation Angel
I’ve come running home to you
trust in me my angel
you’ll never know what I’ve been through
never know what I’ve been through
no no, never know what I’ve been through

I’m your desperation Angel
I’ve come running home to you
and in desperation Angel
I’ve come running back to you
running back to you
running back to you
running back to you
running back to you
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[accordion title=”Waiting for the Sun”]
by John Wesley

Well here we are boy
and I’m through dreaming
all these colors I’ve been flying
have lost the will to keep me high
and I’m not amused…

So I said hey you’re no a star
so are you through screaming
cause all this paranoia’s got you
hiding in the dark
and I can’t see you…

Well shine the light
and you can come on in
can’t you see I’m on a mission
you can stay if you are wishin’
but I’m waiting…

see my daddy hit the doorway
when I was just a kid
said he’d gone to find the sunshine
and bring it back for me
and I’m waiting
waiting for the sun to shine

Do you see my scars
it’s dark and they’re glowing
all these tiny little punctures
are a doorway to the sun
a doorway to the sun
think I’ll have another one

I know he’s in here
I can feel him lookin’ for me
I hear him laughin’ like he did
like he did when I was young
daddy’s bringin’ me the sun
and I’m waiting
waiting for the sun to shine
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[accordion title=”Shiver”]
by John Wesley

I’m a bit unavailable
You seem a bit gone
Rumors of right and wrong, assailable
Delivered from tongues of those un-tamable

Yet loosed
Upon we
See you hurt
See you leave

Then you shiver
I watched you Shiver oh
Then you Shiver till…

I can not breathe any more
No I can not be here alone

You shiver

I watched you Shiver oh You Shiver till I

No shield, entirely covered us
Faith, seems to crumble into dust
Leaving us just ourselves to despair of
Feeling the sting of the poison arrows

So loosed
Upon we
See you hurt
See you leave…

Then you shiver
I watched you Shiver oh
Then you Shiver till…

I can not breathe any more
No I can not be here alone
No I can not dream anymore
No I can not see anymore
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[accordion title=”Used Up”]
by John Wesley

There’s no sense in need
There’s no sense in your disbelief
That you could want love
That you could ever need love
That you could ever come to me

Just take my hand
Feel the warmth in us to understand
How you could ever want love
How you could ever need love
How you could ever come to me

I am not used up I am not
I am not cold, put your hands on me
I am not torn I am not
We will have love
It will set us free…

Down on my knees
I must suspend this disbelief
That you could ever want love
That you could ever need love
That you could ever come to me

I am not used up I am not
I am not cold, put your hands on me
I am not torn I am not
We will have love
It will set us free
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[accordion title=”So Bad”]
by John Wesley

You took a turn for the worse
when I caught up to you last night
flickering it’s saving light

And though improper thing we may do
not always just or always right
every once in a while
I see you smile
like everything will be alright

You always wanted to be so bad
you always wanted to be
one of the stars in the evening sky
one of the doves flying free
Winter stole upon you in your twenty second year
fragile as a wedding smile
you began to disappear
and as the worst of this
comes on you
you know I’ll never leave
your sight
as the night goes out
of this room child
just pray and hold me tight

It’s time to close your eyes child
it’s time for you to sleep
there ain’t no more pain
and no more tears
and this promise I will keep

And though improper things we may do
not always just or always right
in your heart an angel smiles
and guides you through the night
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[accordion title=”Always Be”]
by John Wesley

Voyeur of life, of love
Outside in the rain
And the wind?come in

But you wait
Till the stars fall from the sky
You watch
Till the sun burns your eyes

But you wait
Till the stars fall from the sky
You watch
Till the sun burns your eyes

Come into me
you will always always
run, away with me
you will always always
be one, into we
we will always always
be the sun, with me
we will always always, be…

fortunate one…
yet how alone we become

when you wait till the stars fall from the sky
you watch, till the love burns your eyes

Come into me
you will always always
run, with me
you will always always
be one, into we
we will always always
be the sun, yes me
we will always always… be…
Come into me
you will always always
you will always always
be one, into we
we will always always be
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[accordion title=”Ordinary Man”]
by John Wesley

How easily forgotten
how easily replaced
your loved ones become…
We are the wreckage strewn behind you
love’s own casualties
from the battle that you won

You could not wait
to fly your flag
you could not wait
to raise you man in victory

I know you hate
to be mistaken
for the woman
of just an ordinary man…
To be the lover
of an ordinary man

I’m down on my knees
I’m crawling across the floor to you
I’m holding out my hand
God I do not understand
why I’m down on my knees

Now I’m troubled by your silence
I’m troubled that you no longer dare
to lay with me under the night stars
or walk unhindered on your own two legs
you could not wait
to lose your new freedom
you could not wait
to carry your new chains
I know you hate
to keep him waiting
so you’d better
drag yourself back to him again

I wanna feel alive
I wanna feel awake
to make these night stars go away
I wanna feel alive
I wanna feel awake
I wanna feel anything and
everything
this world will let me taste

I wanna see you cry
I wanna see you break
I wanna see you crash into the walls
of your own infamy
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[accordion title=”The King of 17″]
by John Wesley

Your momma and daddy can’t take care of themselves
So I’m gonna look after of you
Your daddy loves liquor and your momma needs help
Cause all of her nightmares came true

I got this car when my granddaddy passed
So meet me just after last bell
I’ve got twenty dollars it’ll get us some gas
We won’t get to far and we won’t get there fast
But it’s twenty dollars further from hell

Leave it to me cause I’m 17
Leave it to me we’ll get through
If’ you’ll be my queen then I’ll play a king
I’ll always look after you

Just leave it to me
I am a king at 17
Leave it to me…
I am the King of 17

We head to the east to catch up to the sun
You smile as you watch it rise
We come from nothing, we leave nothing behind
my world is the hope in your eyes

Leave it to me cause I’m 17
Leave it to me we’ll get through
If’ you’ll be my queen then I’ll play a king
I’ll always take care of you

Just leave it to me
I am a king at 17
Leave it to me…
I am the King of 17
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[accordion title=”Flyboy”]
by John Wesley

Mama their eyes burn
Holes right through me when I walk by them
How do I offend?

They make me wanna hide
Sometimes I turn my head away and try
Yet I cannot disappear

She said they don’t know you
They don’t shine the way that you do
This world ain’t good enough for the likes of you
You got to get away

You got to fly boy, find your powers and a cape
You got to make your escape, and get away

These years have not been kind
Each new day brings a struggle of a different kind
But hell I don’t mind
A busy man looks through me
His money’d eyes blind to what he will not see
He don’t know the secrets I keep
Well I am happier than he,

‘Cause I’m gonna fly boy, gonna find powers and a cape
I’m gonna make my escape, gonna get outta here

I know about it, I know about it. The world has lost all its dreams
I know about it. The world won’t let us breathe. Won’t set us free

Each day we run this race
Consumed by self we miss the brave face
Or we look away

But not me. I’m gonna rise above this caste you made for me
Gonna be everything you dream but will never be. I’m gonna fly…

‘Cause I am Flyboy, got my powers and a cape
Gonna make my escape, gonna get outta here
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[accordion title=”Rome is Burning”]
by John Wesley

High upon a hill
Looking over the ruins burning still
Where was I for all of this.
Where was I for all of this.

You never looked so bad she said
I didn’t know I could do all this she said
I didn’t know all this could burn with just a kiss
Burn with just a kiss
I didn’t know

You didn’t notice Rome was burning
You didn’t notice you had the flame still in your hands
Why didn’t you notice Rome was burning

As the passion filled your eyes
You couldn’t see to find the home you’d left behind
Like all the lovers that live blind
Lovers that live blind
No you couldn’t see

You didn’t notice Rome was burning
You didn’t notice you had the flame still in your hands
Why didn’t you notice Rome was burning
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[accordion title=”Thirteen Days”]
by John Wesley

I was a child,
life in your arms you hold me
the fire in your eyes stopped the bleeding
the love in your heart kept me breathing

I feel I’m dying again.
I’ve got nothing but hatred for my lover and friend
the lion in your eyes watches me screaming
the cold in your heart keeps my blood freezing

Thirteen days, before you left me here staring
thirteen days, before you tried to stop caring

Stare into the dark
the emptiness of hell comes to enfold me
take a long look at your sweet creation
did you get a thrill to watch my heart breaking

Thirteen days, before you left me here standing alone
thirteen days, before you left me to die on a phone

I cannot pretend, can’t find an end
oh, how I miss you
I was your lover and you were my friend
I pray to God I never see you again

Thirteen days, before you left me here waiting to hold you
Thirteen days, before you forgot what I told you
Thirteen days, that you gave to me only to take from me
Thirteen days, before you left me here breaking
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[accordion title=”Please Come Back”]
by John Wesley

Light filters into the room
Beams split into multitudes
Of angels, rainbows, or any dreams I make them be

Got pictures of you and me
Got a letter of apology
Return address as far away as you can be

My head keeps searching for
The parts of you I adore
I promise I will ignore
How mean you could sometimes be, if you’d just

Please come back to me
Please come back to me
Please come back…

Healthy, relationship,
words that never seem to fit
need and greed
have become more apropos

I’m convinced there’s nothing more
Than the struggle that’s in store
For any soul brave enough to claim love
Well I claim you, if you’d just…

Please come back to me
Please come back to me
Please come back…

feel the heat, you know I…
feel the cuts, you know I’d…
be a star that could lighten up your sky
you know I’d…
give you love, you know I’d
fill your heart, you know I’d
be a star that could sparkle in your sky
if you’d just…

Please come back to me
Please come back to me
Please come back
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[accordion title=”She Said No”]
by John Wesley

It’s been long since we’ve spoken
thought that I might give a call
did you like the flowers, a small token
a gift for you is no trouble at all

It isn’t easy here without you
the days are long, nights way too hard
I was hoping I could see you
I miss your eyes, they touch my heart

She said no

Our little lady is asking for you
don’t understand where you have gone
all she knows is she can’t hold you
thinks that she’s done something wrong

Life isn’t easy here without you
she wakes at night to call your name
I tell her you love her and you miss her
but words from me just aren’t the same
oh baby come home please

She said no

You never face the consequences
you’ll always find some alibi
you leave us behind all cut and bleeding
you turn your back and you don’t know why
no you don’t know why

She said no

It’s been a long time since I’ve held you
no other woman fills my arms
I want to believe that you still love me
somehow I know you’re still there
I’m falling apart and I need your answer
just see my eyes and you’ll find it there
find it there

She said no
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Live at Katie Fitzgerald’s features a live solo acoustic performance from June 2006 at Katie Fitzgerald’s Irish Pub in Stourbridge, England.

Album Credits

Recorded at Katie Fitsgerald’s, Stourbridge, UK on June 6, 2006. All music and lyrics by John Wesley. Recorded by Ian Bond; Mastered by Mark Prator at RedRoom Recorders, Tampa, USA; Show presented by Adrian Holmes / Moriarty Music; Photography by Lasse Hoile; Cover artwork by Rebecca Dearth; Thanks to Adrian, Ian, Rob Galardi, Richard Schwarz, Porcupine Tree, all the staff at Katie Fitzgerald’s and everyone who helped make it a special night. The show was edited from the original recording so that we were able to get as many songs from the evening as possible on the disc. I chose the best performances and left off the hours of “witty banter.”