The Chicago and Frisco Bootlegs

 

Track Listing & Lyrics

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|November 17, 2002| Martyr’s Chicago

[accordions]
[accordion title=”Last Man By Your Side”]
by John Wesley

So we stay
at morning they come
she was gone at the first sign of trouble
see how she runs
then you’re paralyzed
her silhouette in light
and she’s dancing on your grave

The sunrise breaks
what’s done is done
the wind blows cold through your bones and you
see how they run
when you’re trice denied
and you’re paralyzed
I’ll be the last man by your side

All of your castles may crumble
and your ministers may lie
I will still be standing
I’ll be the last man by your side
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[accordion title=”Chasing Monsters”]
by John Wesley

Last year, is a terrible place to live
Before that, is someplace ya go when you cannot forgive
Your own misguided attempt, at changing the world

Wake up in the dark you’re all covered in sweat
I ain’t much of a gambler but I’d be willing to bet
You’ve been chasing monsters
Looks like you’ve already been found…

You wear addiction like a second skin
Well this is one fight you never fought to win
Try as you might
You’re the only fool that still believes

Well I’m here with you
Chasing monsters with you
I still believe, so tell me
Where do they come from?
Where do they come from?

Well I’m here with you
Hunting monsters with you
I’ve got the big guns so tell me
Where do they come from?
Where do they come from?

The chime of a full glass, taste of the first pass,
aroma of butane laid out before you
Slit of a short skirt, a blade on a glass tray
Bliss of a raised vein, chained to the spoon again

The life of the party, center of gravity
A shroud of mystery surrounds you
The smack of a freight train. Crippling ghost pains
Cower and hide, monsters have found you again

Well I’m here with you
Chasing monsters with you
I still believe, so tell me
Where do they come from?
Where do they come from?

Well I’m here with you
Hunting monsters with you
I’ve got the big guns so tell me
Where do they come from?
Where do they come from?
[/accordion]
[accordion title=”Disappeared”]
by John Wesley

There was a time
That you were so bright, and so strong
There was nothing that you feared
Nothing you could do wrong
Dreams glowed in the sun
Your world was alive
So full of life, hard and wild
You were the golden child

Head-long into the withering fire
Of a life in a dark space
Your conscience, became misplaced
Smoke that would not clear
No kind words offered to your ears
Shot down in a steep climb
You disappear in a haze of smoke and wine

Well I’m waiting and I wonder
Where have you gone why are you not here
We’re waiting and we wonder
Where someone goes when they’ve been disappeared

Separation of your thoughts
Words that no longer rhyme
Days spent in your room
Spinning webs with the threads left of your mind
Dreams you no longer face
Hidden away in some far place
A shame of a kind that does not erase
Hold onto your pillow and drop out of the race

Head-long into the withering fire
Blindfolded, stumbling across a tight wire
Shot down in a steep climb
You disappeared in a haze of smoke and wine

Well I’m waiting and I wonder
Where have you gone, and why are you not here
We’re waiting and we wonder
Where a soul goes when it’s been disappeared

I see you and I speak to you
There ain’t nothing in your eyes but the glow of fear
I beg you to tell me
Why have you been disappeared

The struggle of these last years
Brought me to this place
Where I hold my beautiful wife
My beautiful child
I reach and touch her face

All the hurt of my lost years
The uncertainty, all the fears
The losses, regrets and the tears
Have in time been disappeared
Have with time been disappeared
They will with time
[/accordion]
[accordion title=”Thirteen Days”]
by John Wesley

I was a child,
life in your arms you hold me
the fire in your eyes stopped the bleeding
the love in your heart kept me breathing

I feel I’m dying again.
I’ve got nothing but hatred for my lover and friend
the lion in your eyes watches me screaming
the cold in your heart keeps my blood freezing

Thirteen days, before you left me here staring
thirteen days, before you tried to stop caring

Stare into the dark
the emptiness of hell comes to enfold me
take a long look at your sweet creation
did you get a thrill to watch my heart breaking

Thirteen days, before you left me here standing alone
thirteen days, before you left me to die on a phone

I cannot pretend, can’t find an end
oh, how I miss you
I was your lover and you were my friend
I pray to God I never see you again

Thirteen days, before you left me here waiting to hold you
Thirteen days, before you forgot what I told you
Thirteen days, that you gave to me only to take from me
Thirteen days, before you left me here breaking
[/accordion]
[accordion title=”Flyboy”]
by John Wesley

Mama their eyes burn
Holes right through me when I walk by them
How do I offend?

They make me wanna hide
Sometimes I turn my head away and try
Yet I cannot disappear

She said they don’t know you
They don’t shine the way that you do
This world ain’t good enough for the likes of you
You got to get away

You got to fly boy, find your powers and a cape
You got to make your escape, and get away

These years have not been kind
Each new day brings a struggle of a different kind
But hell I don’t mind
A busy man looks through me
His money’d eyes blind to what he will not see
He don’t know the secrets I keep
Well I am happier than he,

‘Cause I’m gonna fly boy, gonna find powers and a cape
I’m gonna make my escape, gonna get outta here

I know about it, I know about it. The world has lost all its dreams
I know about it. The world won’t let us breathe. Won’t set us free

Each day we run this race
Consumed by self we miss the brave face
Or we look away

But not me. I’m gonna rise above this caste you made for me
Gonna be everything you dream but will never be. I’m gonna fly…

‘Cause I am Flyboy, got my powers and a cape
Gonna make my escape, gonna get outta here
[/accordion]
[accordion title=”Velvet Dreams”]
by John Wesley

I must guard this precious heart
I must close these jaded eyes
My small world has come apart
Under the weight of our demise

The words you say, the way you move
The lies you tell, the bones you bruise
Cannot be mended, cannot be healed
I am the soul that no longer feels

You must leave, you must go
I am better here alone
I have nothing left to steal
I am the soul that no longer feels
You must leave, you must go
I am better here alone
I am better here

A velvet veil covered your head
White like the satin on our bed
These vows were never meant to be so mean
This is not my velvet dream

You must leave, you must go
I am better here alone
I have nothing left to steal
I am the soul that no longer heals
You must leave, you must go
I am better here alone
Be this hell or in between
These are not my velvet dreams
These are not my dreams
[/accordion]
[accordion title=”Showing Happy to the World”]
by John Wesley

Look into the sky, you can’t erase what’s in your eyes
Look into the sun, you cannot face what you’ve become
Through the shopping malls, you blend into the human walls
Your eyes search the faces, as you move within the places
That you once moved with her, that you once knew with her

When you were arm in arm showing happy to the world
You were arm in arm showing happy to the world
arm in arm showing happy to the world
is no one happy in this world

Grateful for breath, more than once you’ve cheated death
Crushed till you scream, you can’t awaken from this dream
This I will pray for you, this I will promise you
For every lover that’s gone, another comes along

And you will move in her, as if you always knew in her

You will be
Arm in arm showing happy to the world
Arm in arm showing happy to the world
Arm in arm showing happy to the world
you will be happy in this world
[/accordion]
[accordion title=”Waiting for the Sun”]
by John Wesley

Well here we are boy
and I’m through dreaming
all these colors I’ve been flying
have lost the will to keep me high
and I’m not amused…

So I said hey you’re no a star
so are you through screaming
cause all this paranoia’s got you
hiding in the dark
and I can’t see you…

Well shine the light
and you can come on in
can’t you see I’m on a mission
you can stay if you are wishin’
but I’m waiting…

see my daddy hit the doorway
when I was just a kid
said he’d gone to find the sunshine
and bring it back for me
and I’m waiting
waiting for the sun to shine

Do you see my scars
it’s dark and they’re glowing
all these tiny little punctures
are a doorway to the sun
a doorway to the sun
think I’ll have another one

I know he’s in here
I can feel him lookin’ for me
I hear him laughin’ like he did
like he did when I was young
daddy’s bringin’ me the sun
and I’m waiting
waiting for the sun to shine
[/accordion]
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Rare B-sides

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[accordion title=”Domino”]
Lyrics are not available
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[accordion title=”Gold Mine”]
Lyrics are not available
[/accordion]
[accordion title=”So Bad”]
by John Wesley

You took a turn for the worse
when I caught up to you last night
flickering it’s saving light

And though improper thing we may do
not always just or always right
every once in a while
I see you smile
like everything will be alright

You always wanted to be so bad
you always wanted to be
one of the stars in the evening sky
one of the doves flying free
Winter stole upon you in your twenty second year
fragile as a wedding smile
you began to disappear
and as the worst of this
comes on you
you know I’ll never leave
your sight
as the night goes out
of this room child
just pray and hold me tight

It’s time to close your eyes child
it’s time for you to sleep
there ain’t no more pain
and no more tears
and this promise I will keep

And though improper things we may do
not always just or always right
in your heart an angel smiles
and guides you through the night
[/accordion]
[accordion title=”I Know, I Know”]
Lyrics are not available
[/accordion]
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|November 25, 2002| Fillmore San Francisco

[accordions]
[accordion title=”Trip And Fall”]
by John Wesley

Sometimes we run we trip and fall
Sometimes we look we don’t see at all
Sometimes we heal, it leaves a scar
Sometimes we run we go too far

And then we slide…

You and me we been through this before
Seems the bruises that won’t heal got bruised some more
Through these towering waves of malice we rise
The only way we lived was side by side
But then we slide…

You know I’ve got no shame for what we are
It’s a miracle we ever come this far
And the only way we ever did survive
Was side by side

Some days I was your only friend
Some days I thought we would be again
Some nights it was you kept me alive
I can’t face this world without you by my side

But then we slide
[/accordion]
[accordion title=”Disappeared”]
by John Wesley

There was a time
That you were so bright, and so strong
There was nothing that you feared
Nothing you could do wrong
Dreams glowed in the sun
Your world was alive
So full of life, hard and wild
You were the golden child

Head-long into the withering fire
Of a life in a dark space
Your conscience, became misplaced
Smoke that would not clear
No kind words offered to your ears
Shot down in a steep climb
You disappear in a haze of smoke and wine

Well I’m waiting and I wonder
Where have you gone why are you not here
We’re waiting and we wonder
Where someone goes when they’ve been disappeared

Separation of your thoughts
Words that no longer rhyme
Days spent in your room
Spinning webs with the threads left of your mind
Dreams you no longer face
Hidden away in some far place
A shame of a kind that does not erase
Hold onto your pillow and drop out of the race

Head-long into the withering fire
Blindfolded, stumbling across a tight wire
Shot down in a steep climb
You disappeared in a haze of smoke and wine

Well I’m waiting and I wonder
Where have you gone, and why are you not here
We’re waiting and we wonder
Where a soul goes when it’s been disappeared

I see you and I speak to you
There ain’t nothing in your eyes but the glow of fear
I beg you to tell me
Why have you been disappeared

The struggle of these last years
Brought me to this place
Where I hold my beautiful wife
My beautiful child
I reach and touch her face

All the hurt of my lost years
The uncertainty, all the fears
The losses, regrets and the tears
Have in time been disappeared
Have with time been disappeared
They will with time
[/accordion]
[accordion title=”Thirteen Days”]
by John Wesley

I was a child,
life in your arms you hold me
the fire in your eyes stopped the bleeding
the love in your heart kept me breathing

I feel I’m dying again.
I’ve got nothing but hatred for my lover and friend
the lion in your eyes watches me screaming
the cold in your heart keeps my blood freezing

Thirteen days, before you left me here staring
thirteen days, before you tried to stop caring

Stare into the dark
the emptiness of hell comes to enfold me
take a long look at your sweet creation
did you get a thrill to watch my heart breaking

Thirteen days, before you left me here standing alone
thirteen days, before you left me to die on a phone

I cannot pretend, can’t find an end
oh, how I miss you
I was your lover and you were my friend
I pray to God I never see you again

Thirteen days, before you left me here waiting to hold you
Thirteen days, before you forgot what I told you
Thirteen days, that you gave to me only to take from me
Thirteen days, before you left me here breaking
[/accordion]
[accordion title=”Flyboy”]
by John Wesley

Mama their eyes burn
Holes right through me when I walk by them
How do I offend?

They make me wanna hide
Sometimes I turn my head away and try
Yet I cannot disappear

She said they don’t know you
They don’t shine the way that you do
This world ain’t good enough for the likes of you
You got to get away

You got to fly boy, find your powers and a cape
You got to make your escape, and get away

These years have not been kind
Each new day brings a struggle of a different kind
But hell I don’t mind
A busy man looks through me
His money’d eyes blind to what he will not see
He don’t know the secrets I keep
Well I am happier than he,

‘Cause I’m gonna fly boy, gonna find powers and a cape
I’m gonna make my escape, gonna get outta here

I know about it, I know about it. The world has lost all its dreams
I know about it. The world won’t let us breathe. Won’t set us free

Each day we run this race
Consumed by self we miss the brave face
Or we look away

But not me. I’m gonna rise above this caste you made for me
Gonna be everything you dream but will never be. I’m gonna fly…

‘Cause I am Flyboy, got my powers and a cape
Gonna make my escape, gonna get outta here
[/accordion]
[accordion title=”Velvet Dreams”]
by John Wesley

I must guard this precious heart
I must close these jaded eyes
My small world has come apart
Under the weight of our demise

The words you say, the way you move
The lies you tell, the bones you bruise
Cannot be mended, cannot be healed
I am the soul that no longer feels

You must leave, you must go
I am better here alone
I have nothing left to steal
I am the soul that no longer feels
You must leave, you must go
I am better here alone
I am better here

A velvet veil covered your head
White like the satin on our bed
These vows were never meant to be so mean
This is not my velvet dream

You must leave, you must go
I am better here alone
I have nothing left to steal
I am the soul that no longer heals
You must leave, you must go
I am better here alone
Be this hell or in between
These are not my velvet dreams
These are not my dreams
[/accordion]
[accordion title=”Waiting for the Sun”]
by John Wesley

Well here we are boy
and I’m through dreaming
all these colors I’ve been flying
have lost the will to keep me high
and I’m not amused…

So I said hey you’re no a star
so are you through screaming
cause all this paranoia’s got you
hiding in the dark
and I can’t see you…

Well shine the light
and you can come on in
can’t you see I’m on a mission
you can stay if you are wishin’
but I’m waiting…

see my daddy hit the doorway
when I was just a kid
said he’d gone to find the sunshine
and bring it back for me
and I’m waiting
waiting for the sun to shine

Do you see my scars
it’s dark and they’re glowing
all these tiny little punctures
are a doorway to the sun
a doorway to the sun
think I’ll have another one

I know he’s in here
I can feel him lookin’ for me
I hear him laughin’ like he did
like he did when I was young
daddy’s bringin’ me the sun
and I’m waiting
waiting for the sun to shine
[/accordion]
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Wesfest Productions has put together this special live release. The Chicago / San Francisco Bootlegs, features 2 complete acoustic shows from the Porcupine Tree tour, plus all 4 B-Sides from the Under the Red and White Sky days that were previously only released in France.